My buddy Cameron sent this to me yesterday knowing how appropriate it is for me at the moment.
I haven’t talked at length about this here, but I am currently in my last week as a Student/Groups Pastor at an incredible church. After that I am a church planter.
For the last six months I have been working towards a specific goal. We had a strong sense of calling, place, and time. Those around us were affirming us to act, healthy organizations are standing with us. Everything seemed to be lining up perfectly.
Until it didn’t.
Obstacle after obstacle has presented itself, and in the end we aren’t going to be able pursue the specific area on our planned timeline.
That’s the diplomatic way to put it, because when it first became clear it felt like a punch in the face.
We do have options moving forward and we are covered financially for a season, and right now we are excited about the adventure ahead of us but initially it felt like we had failed. Even now as I type this I can sense that that feeling of failure returning.
You can read the full story here.
I (we) shouldn’t be surprised when things aren’t easy. Ministry is incredibly hard and full of unknowns. We aren’t fighting flesh and blood alone.
Sometimes our online selves present some concept of perfection and I always want to be as realistic as possible with you.
So here is the bad:
- A consistent and strong dream from the past year seems to be falling apart.
- I am leaving an incredible church with people I love to lead and be lead by.
- This church I am leaving is also incredibly generous and provides full benefits.
- We are leaving a house we love.
- In the next few days we will be moving back in with my parents.
And here is the reality:
- We are continuing to pursue God’s best for us with freedom and confidence.
- An incredible community that we love is completely behind us.
- Said community is helping us financially during this transition.
- We sold our house in two weeks in the middle of December.
- My parents are allowing us to live with them and in turn making it financially possible to pursue God’s best for us.
Yeah it stinks and there will be tears shed in the next few days and weeks. And we have no certainty as to where we will be in a few months.
But we aren’t surprised and we have peace moving forward.